I wish I could bring you back somehow or see you again, I know I cant bevause your really gone. I thank you SO much for being my friend on that first day of school at SOAR because I didn't know who to be friends with, you and Diana were the only ones that'd talk to me. Thank You so much, because of you I am where I am because you helped me believe in myself with your kind encouragin words I can never forget everytime I'd tell you "You can SING real good, your amazing" and you'd say "thats what everyone saysss" and you'd be nervous. I learned so much from you but most importatnyl was to never get nervous and to follow our dreams , but of course keeping a back up plan, and I thank you SOO much . I miss you like crazy and I JUST NEED YOU TO COME BACK BUDDY, or allow ME to see YOU before I had no reason to die, I had no one to die for, it sounds wrong because I've never met my grandpa but I always though God knew why I couldn't have met him, but I miss YOU soo much. I will still be by your side and I will keep writing your songs. I promise you. ;*( I can't even put in a happy smile because it looks tOO happy and really i feel like this ---> ;{ but I'll give you this :| its a wriggly line. I promised no more tears, Im failing if I continue at this. I love You Skittles!! & I will SEE u soon, and please be there when I blow the candles from my cake the day before your birthday. My birthday :) because I have ONE special wish that I hope you can help me on. I love you and I miss you and I really wish I could see you and I know I will and I know when I do I will thank the Lord my beautiful God for allowing me to stand by his side, and by allowing me to be beneath his beautiful wings. I can only wait so long, unfortunatly I do not believe the world will end in 2010 and I am glad I would not like to live in that fear, I am going to LIVE my life because all it is, is a waiting line to see God and YOU and I need patience for there is plenty people in the world that want to enter as bad as me.
01/26/2010
01/22/2010
I just read one of your messages. One I don't think I payed so much attention to when you send it to me. Now that I read it it reads "Love yaa buddy;" and my hopes of seeing you seem uncontrolable now. How can I lose a best friend the way I lost you? Only you know how I truly feel and you always know I will always be by your side. No Matter What!! I Love You too Buddy, i wish I had one more day with you. One More day to see you. One more day with the Mighty Jungle <3 ;( I MISS YOU SOO MUCH!!!
